Ferrets

I miss my little demons when I don't get to play with them all week! I haven't been taking them out of their cage nearly often enough, but today they're running around, playing, tormenting the dog, and trying to eat my chocolate!

I tried to take a picture of Spook on my mom's MacBook (which I'm borrowing), but he's way too quick for its built-in camera. All I took was a photo of a fuzzy, white blur.

My Ovaries and Me

Anyone who's ever read my LiveJournal should know by now that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), which has caused me a lot of pain and contributed to other medical conditions, specifically my interstitial cystitis. For the last year, my husband and I have given up using any form of birth control, because we both felt confident that I would not be able to conceive without outside medical help, but that if I did happen to conceive, that we were in a time of our lives where we could accept a pregnancy and everything that goes along with that.

Of course, we haven't conceived, although I have had an instance of either a chemical pregnancy or my ovarian cysts mimicking pregnancy symptoms. So, on the 12th we're going to visit my ob/gyn for a regular checkup and to discuss fertility treatments. I don't want to do anything too extreme- that just goes against my personal beliefs- but I am not opposed to taking an orally-administered fertility drug, like Clomid, or undergoing ovarian drilling to stimulate my ovulation. I will not try In-vitro fertilization, both because of the expense and the selfishness I feel it implies. I am also opposed to using donor sperm or donor eggs, because once it comes to that what is the point? I might as well adopt an unwanted child who is just as deserving of a home, if not moreso.

My main reason for wanting to conceive at this age is that I no longer want to suffer from such severe hormone imbalances and pelvic pain, otherwise I would prefer to wait several more years before considering having a child. If we come to learn that I am not able to conceive even with the help of some of the less-extreme fertility treatments, we would just prefer to adopt an older child when we're both a little older. If we get to that point, then I'm going to have a partial hysterectomy to remove my ovaries and fallopian tubes, otherwise I'll have them removed after we have a baby.

If it weren't for my husband, I would probably have already had my ovaries removed, much to my mother's horror. Not because I've never wanted to have children, but because I have no problem with adoption and I have a HUGE problem with my PCOS!

This is going to be a time of big changes in our life, both because of this and because we'll be buying a new home soon and I'm going to be going back to school, but online so I can attend classes on a flexible schedule, which is something I need because of my health situation(s). We're also looking in to possibly starting our own business, but I won't be going back to school or attempting to start any sort of business until we move in to our own home; I just need that firm base-of-operations to keep myself grounded!

We did finally get a letter from the Road Home Program, but, ironically, we can't get the money until we buy a house and we can't buy a house until we get the money. It's asinine, but with my parent's help we're going to work it out.